Ups and Downs All Arounds

(This is not a photo of MY husband)

So I've been researching and driving hubby up the wall. BUT we finally had a breakthrough ie. I broke him. He's going to cut wayyyyy back on alcohol until his sperm get better. He has a big fishing trip after his second S/A and will probably drink a bunch with the boys, and I'm fine with that. I don't think that drinking really causes bad morphology. TONS of people drink and are still able to get preggers. I wonder if he realizes this could be for 3 months, i mean, i told him, but was he really listening?

He's going to cut back to no drinking during the work week, and 1-2 glasses on his off nights. I'm so proud of him! I had to ask him if he thought he had a drinking problem and forced ourselves to talk about the idea of talking about where our goals are in life . . . he was complaining and whining sooooooo much about it not being fair that he had to stop drinking. I tried the nice approach and told him yeah, its not fair and that I'm so proud of him for being open to cutting back. I tried the angry approach, I've quit caffeine and drinking for the past 10 months and will HAVE to stop all those when we do get preggers for 9 months and then some while i'm breastfeeding . . . all he could think about was how he didnt want to cut back and how it isnt fair. Poor guy, they deal with infertility situations so much more angrily than women.

We've also decided that if we had to we would do IVF and make adjustments for the costs. I really hope we can have a baby naturally. His sperm WILL get better. Maybe not by the next S/A test, but maybe in August he will have healthy sperm. Ugh, so far away . . .

On a lucky note - I was supposed to run a 5K last weekend but couldn't since i had to be a slave to my mom for mother's day, I won a door prize for the race. I told my friend that she could have it if she picked it up and she forgot to, but they mailed it to me! guess what it is???? a free 1 hour Reike massage:
"Reike healing is the usage of spiritual energy to heal a person's aura or situation. The word "Reiki" actually translates to "Universal Life Force Energy." Massage is the process of rubbing or kneading different parts of the body for therapeutic reasons or purposes"
One of them being reproductive issues!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEeeeee!!! hubby is going to love this!

Bloodwork - Normal!!!

YAYAYA!!!

I just got a call from my OBGYN and my blood work came back normal for progesterone, thyroid, and whatever else they check!!! She says i'm definitely O'ing and we just need to hear about my Hubby's SA. The wait is killing me!!!

He went in friday and they say it takes 1 week to get the results. really??? come on!!!!! i know they test his stuff within the hour, please, just call us!!!

If his SA comes back normal then the next step is to make an appoint with my OBGYN to set up dye test/ultrasound to check for blocked tubes.

I'm 50% excited that I'm coming up as normal for now. Actually I'm really excited my armpits are sweaty and i keep making typo's. I'm so tempted to call my Hubby's dr to see if they will call me instead of him to give us the results (he works 12 hour shifts) and I'm sure he won't understand what they're telling him. And i'll act like a crazy person and research it like crazy!

Even though my blood work is normal there are still other hurdles that i will face. If his sperm is bad then we might have to do IUI with any good sperm (i've heard this can range from $200-$1000, ugh) . . . if his sperm is good, then i may have blocked tubes or be termed as having unknown infertility.

Sperm test! Sperm test! Sperm test! what are the results???

CD 24 Bloodwork, No SA results back yet

I went to the doc to get blood drawn this morning before work. It was really simple and fast. She's supposed to call me later today or tomorrow with results. I'm not even worried. What I'm worried about is waiting to get hubby's SA results back . . . they said it'll take a week and he had it done last friday. I need to remind hubby again to write down everything they tell him. I know when he hears the message he'll be like, "sperm count - good, beebamorphology - huh, something else - good" and then delete the message. I'm going to make myself wait until wednesday to call his doctor if we haven't heard anything back from them. Hopefully they'll give me the results directly.

Babysitting

Saturday night i babysat my friends 5 year old and 8ish month old. They are such good kids!!! The baby definitely still needed his momma to make him happy, but it was definitely a neat experience having a kid and small baby chillin at my house on a saturday evening. It didnt make me want or not want a kid anymore or less. If anything it seemed like it'd be easier than i thought . . . but i only had them for about 6 hours. You don't realize how much you need both arms to do stuff!

It was super cute watching my hubby help with the kids when he got home from work. He's always been really comfortable and good with kids. The baby was crying while we were trying to eat our dinner (quickly) and hubby would say "its ok, just let him cry for a little bit, don't touch him" (he was sitting in-between us on the couch). and then he'd lean over and pat him! And if i leaned over to comfort the baby he'd remind me that it was ok to let him cry for a little bit . . .

Its cute at how the littlest things make a baby smile.

My cats did great with the kids! The baby pulled at my cats fur a little and didnt get mad, and they didnt hiss when the baby cried! Because she did that once before when a different baby was over and crying.

I guess i'll take a baby whenever. no rush, kinda over worrying, but still want one.

TTC history

Have you seen me?

So me and Hubby have been trying to make a baby for 10 months now. It's been a stressful fast but slow 10 months. I thought it would be so easy . . . put object A in object B and poof! baby! nope.

I'm getting post O testing done on Monday morning. Hubby had a SA today . . . or did he? Only we will know . . . why am i announcing this? What if his sperm are bad and and we use donor sperm and don't want anyone to know??? That's why this blog is not being released for a couple months . . .

I'm so tired of thinking "i might be pregnant" b/c i feel like its never going to happen, ever. But it has to, right? it has too? ever since i was 8 i wanted to be a mom. I very dutifully cared and loved my cabbage patch doll, Elaine for a long time . . . until i lost her, how does that happen? its not like i went somewhere and left her? or i guess i could have.

Anyhow this whole trying to conceive (TTC) process is really painful, I'd wish it on my worst enemy's. It's really not fair. A crackhead can have a baby, but me and my hubby can't? We own a home, both have good jobs, both have insurance, have 2 cars, we don't smoke crack . . . The position of baby assigning has been vacant for a couple million years i guess. This sucks. But it could get suckier after we get all our results back. Good thing our insurance covers testing but no fixing. "Yay, we know whats wrong!" . . . "thrrp! too bad deal with it . . .byebye"

Even at cycle 10 i have to force myself not to think "i might be pregnant, i might not get my period this time . . . it'll be like seeing in color for the first time, everything will smell like roses!" Because it probably won't this time or next or next or next. I'm leaving it up to my RE that I will see in June to tell us our fate.